of reconciliation and being respectful

hi blog. it's been a while since i've last updated you.
-reconciliation-


like a plant, a fruit bearing plant.
not knowing how difficult it is for the time spent
of raising up that plant; from it's virgin seed.
then came other people's nourishment.
not bearing fruit for the one who had planted the seed.
-being respectful-

deep?
it should be.
only the ones who have thoughts like this would
understand.
how bad i feel for being that plant.

why am i like this?
i've been asking myself since thee
hath the blossom of my life
hatheart at my act of cyssan

i wanna fall off the stage; away from the spotlight
she held me up.
yet i'm like this,
save me.